urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:holler_banditholler_banditholler_banditholler_bandit2004-09-08T01:18:50Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:holler_bandit:7278 Things I Hate About You2004-09-08T01:18:50Z2004-09-08T01:18:50Z<p> <font color="#00cccc">I hate the way you act around him- the way you can't speak your mind, the way your heart races and the nervous feeling settles into your stomach. </font><font color="#00cccc"> I hate the way you look at him- thinking he could be more than just a friend. You watch him move, watch him speak and it all seems beautiful to you. I hate the way you find a way to turn his flaws into perfection. I hate the way you don't ever let guys get to you like this, and then finally the one you let have an effect on you, seems more distant than ever. I hate the way you talk to eachother- flirty, touchy, sweet and innocent, hints of what could come further down the road, and yet it's a road you never seem to reach. I hate the way you think of him, how he always seems to find his way into your thoughts. I hate the confustion, how things are never clear, but most of all I hate seeing your reflection in the mirror</font></p>
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<p><font color="#00cccc"></font> </p>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:holler_bandit:414To you2004-08-24T18:51:43Z2004-08-24T18:51:43ZI would like a chance to say the things i want to say... I'm sorry for the misconceptions, i do not have any feelings for adam anymore. i dont appreciate you holding any grudges or hard feelings against me, just because we dated for that short period of time. and i also dont appreciate you going to my friends to get information about me.. if there is something you want to know, why not come straight to me for it. that way you end up with everything u wanted to know. i dont know how you and your extended family perceive, me, but i assure you that i am in no way trying to get back together with adam, hit on him, or jeopardize your relationship. that wasnt my intention at all. if anything i just wanted to maintain a friendship with him, but that doesnt seem at all possible with the way things have been going. and honestly its fine. im over it... yeah i might have been attached to him for a while, but that was only becuz he was the first real boyfriend i had, so naturally i compare other guys to him. and its more of the thought of him, and what he represented in my life that i hold onto, then him actually. from this time last year until now ive grown up as a person an incredible amount. and for me, dating him represented the process of that growth. he was a symbol of my need for independence, he opened doors for me socially, i started going to shows, and through that i eventually met everyone i hang out with now. it was just the start of things for me, and i think thats what meant so much to me now that i look back upon it. <br /><br />I'm sorry if you have ever felt like i was threatening things between the two of you, or anything of that nature. i thought when we had our last talk about this that things got cleared up, but i guess not. i've given up on attempting to pursue a friendship with adam..all that is left is awkward "hellos" when i happen to run into him somewhere. im sorry if even that bothers you, but that is all that is left.. i wish only the best for you and your family. <br /><br />sincerely,<br /><br />samantha ward